Each day I’m only getting sicker. Despite any ‘gbs’. I’m so frustrated and depressed, I can only cry about it.. no medication is working. It only makes me drowsy and the side effects.. ugh. Sleep is my only escape. I just want to get better. I would have never imagined getting this sick, ever.

I want to walk normally again. I want to eat normally again. I want my body to function normally again. I’m tired. I’m so sick of being sick. I don’t want to lie in bed all day with the telly switched on, when I can barely lift my neck to see anything. I feel like I’m slowly dying. Its lonely how I’m spending my days. I can’t stop worrying about how I’ll catch up in school.. I’m probably fucked. I can’t stop worrying about who will take my work shifts..

I feel like I’m wasting so much time in bed, but standing or even sitting upright is unbearable. I can’t even start on all the piled up homework. I feel like the girl in 1L of Tears.. of course its not as severe, but each day I wake up and find yet another task I can not accomplish alone. I just can’t help but cry.

Why is this happening to me?

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